One of the nice things about life is that it gives us a great timeline that we can look back on. Certain things are bound to get a little bit fuzzy here and there but for the most part we are all blessed with a good memory that is filled with the times gone bye.
More recently though I've been spending a lot of time looking forward, where is life heading? It's not the easiest thing to try and extrapolate out the trajectory of your life. If past experiences are anything to go by, the progression of life is neither linear nor exponential. At the best it's nearly completely random with periods of tranquility, disaster, contemplation, and explosion so closely intermingled it's hard to tell the difference at time.
So what's the point of trying to draw a plan out over the next five years? Well bluntly put I'm an engineer and having a set of blueprints is something so ingrained into my nature that to stray from it would be like trying to paint a picture with a cat as your brush. Sure it'll work, but it's not going to look that great, and you'll end up with some scratches.
With all that said though I've done the best I can with my lovely wife to try and lay in the trajectory of our life for a manageable portion of our future. There's no sense trying to map the whole thing as we've already discussed. But no sooner had we laid in this trajectory and set our heading did life feel the need to throw me one of the lovely curve balls it's so fond of and make me question my own heading.
Does this ever happen to you? It's not that I was knocked out of my trajectory or off the horse, rather that a new option showed itself that I hadn't anticipated that suddenly made me doubt the way I was going.
At times like this, I'm glad that I can look back and see other moments in my life when exactly the same thing happened. I was just as clueless then as I am now, but it's nice to know that I've been there before and lived through it to get to here. It's times like this that I'm grateful I have the Lord to lean on for direction, and a wife to experience the ride with hand in hand.
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